I have come to openly accept that my eating in the past decade has been disordered. I teeter on the precipice of binge eating or complete starvation to assuage emotional and mental issues. Issues I have been dealing with for over twelve years, and still refuse to let go. I need to let go.
So here is my vow. To my daughter and to myself, may the internet witness me.
- I vow that while counting calories I will not ignore healthy fats or proteins to lower that daily number.
- I vow that exercise will not exceed one hour every day, and that hour will be divided into cardio and weight training.
- I vow to never use surgery or diet pills of any kind to substitute for my own will power. I will only get a breast reduction if my chiropractor and PCP agree it is medically necessary.
I will be myself. I will be true to the body God gave to me and not attempt to harm it or starve it into what I believe is beautiful–because the world is wrong. I am wrong and I am going to fix this.
- I vow to go back into therapy.
- I vow to keep all psychiatrist, psychologist and chiropractor appointments.
So say we all. Amen.
